Vision

"Those who cannot see Christ in the poor are atheists indeed. " 

— Dorothy Day

GO BRUINS!!!!

Suzanne Kreiter/Globe Staff

Wickedness is a myth invented by good people 

to account for the curious attractiveness of others

Oscar Wilde

Beatification a conspiracy of disgrace: At best, a "Patron saint of looking the other way.’’

In 1994, seven years before the clergy sexual abuse scandal exploded, Robert Costello sent a letter to Pope John Paul. “Dear Holy Father,’’ it began, “When I was a small boy of about 10 years old, I was sexually abused by our parish priest. The abuse lasted for over four years. At the time, what was happening to me was extremely frightening. I was very battered on the inside and very cold on the outside.’’

Costello was an altar boy at St. Theresa’s in West Roxbury, and a predator in a Roman collar named John Cotter routinely molested him. Cotter would follow him into the pool and put his hands down his swim trunks.

“On the inside, I was dead,’’ Costello wrote to the pope.

Costello felt a shame he could share with no one. He started stealing drinks from his grandfather’s liquor cabinet.

“I think it was the first time I really wanted to die,’’ he wrote to the pope. “I was both physically and mentally raped of everything I knew. My world was dark.’’

He urged the pope to confront the evil in his midst as surely as he spoke out about the evils of communism and totalitarianism.

“What I can’t understand is all of the silence by the Catholic Church,’’ he wrote to the man who was in charge of that church. “This priest admitted what he did. The Church knows he abused sexually, spiritually and mentally many children. He was transferred to another parish where he continued to sexually abuse children.’’

He begged the pope for an audience.

“By us sitting down together you could help the healing process for thousands of people. I would not take up much of your time and it would mean so much to countless others that the pastoral responsibilities of the Catholic Church were making a comeback.’’

Bob Costello never did hear back from the pope, and today in a ceremony in Rome that will put that little wedding in London to shame, the dead pope will be beatified, one step away from sainthood.

“You would think that the institutional church would have learned, would have been sensitive to the thousands and thousands of victims and survivors out there,’’ Bob Costello told me yesterday. “But by making John Paul a saint, and by rushing the process so blatantly, I think it’s pretty clear that the leaders of the church still don’t get it. They still think it’s all about them, not about the ordinary people, not about those who have suffered.’’

There is no doubt John Paul was a great man. He was also a flawed man who presided over a church that was guilty of one of the biggest institutional coverups of criminal activity in history. The pope being rushed to sainthood failed thousands of children and in doing so failed his church and his God.

Nine years before Bob Costello wrote that unanswered letter to the pope, a great priest and canon lawyer at the Vatican named Tom Doyle delivered to the pope a clarion call for action. Priests were raping children all over the world with impunity, Doyle’s report found, and the church risked losing its collected fortune and its collective soul unless the pope did something about it.

Like Bob Costello’s letter, Tom Doyle’s report was ignored.

“Hundreds of thousands of lives were ruined because this pope looked the other way, and now they are falling over themselves to make him a saint,’’ Father Doyle said. “It is self-serving, and it is counterproductive, more evidence that the people who run the church don’t understand that these very actions are driving people from the church. It mystifies me. And when I think of the survivors of sexual abuse, it saddens and angers me.’’

Barry Bonds, the greatest home run hitter of all time, is now considered a cheat who will probably be denied entry into the Hall of Fame. Pope John Paul II is now just one step from entering his church’s hall of fame.

“Major League Baseball has higher standards than the Vatican,’’ Father Doyle said. “And that’s not saying much for Major League Baseball.’’

Out in Western Massachusetts, another great priest named Jim Scahill was on the phone, talking about the lack of humility so evident in the Vatican’s rush to beatify John Paul. Scahill sat with and comforted dozens of victims of sexual abuse. He forced his bishop to defrock one abuser, and then exposed that bishop, Thomas Dupre, as an abuser, too.

Father Scahill was debating whether to talk about the beatification today during his homily at St. Michael’s Church in East Longmeadow.

“I think the kindest thing I could do is not mention it,’’ he said. “The rush to make this man a saint is abhorrent and arrogant. He did accomplish a lot as pope. But to beatify someone who didn’t protect children is a travesty, a continuation of the coverup that damaged the church so much. The money that is going to be spent on this is a disgrace. And in all their pomp and circumstance, the people who run the Vatican are revictimizing the survivors.’’

Some people want John Paul to be the patron saint of Poland.

Tom Doyle, the good priest who was ignored by the pope, has a better idea.

“John Paul,’’ he said, “should be the patron saint of looking the other way.’’

Kevin Cullen is a Globe columnist. He can be reached at cullen@globe.com

Congruity

Do I contradict myself?

Very well then I contradict myself.

(I am large, I contain multitudes.)

~Walt Whitman, Leaves of Grass, 1892

Presence

Don't touch me! Don't question me! Don't speak to me! Stay with me! - Samuel Beckett

Borges

"I can give you my loneliness, my darkness, the hunger of my heart,

I am trying to bribe you with uncertainty, with danger, with defeat."
— Jorge Luis Borges

Saturday morning thought ...

apostles creed on Baybayin

Astounding to me, yet no longer surprising, are the lengths to which we humans will go to step outside of the complex yet simple experience of being human ... by creating systems of belief and worship, always with the promise of a better life, a truer meaning of life, the change of our lives.

Into what?

We reduce wonder into measurable creeds that we can export, call people to, and most importantly, sell, turn into profit. Doesn't matter what shape or color of religion, philosophy, metaphysical science, provable or speculative.

At what price do we trade the mystery of watching an ant scale a blade of grass?

~ zjm

Perspective

This Morning

by Raymond Carver

This morning was something. A little snow
lay on the ground. The sun floated in a clear
blue sky. The sea was blue, and blue-green,
as far as the eye could see.
Scarcely a ripple. Calm. I dressed and went
for a walk -- determined not to return
until I took in what Nature had to offer.
I passed close to some old, bent-over trees.
Crossed a field strewn with rocks
where snow had drifted. Kept going
until I reached the bluff.
Where I gazed at the sea, and the sky, and
the gulls wheeling over the white beach
far below. All lovely. All bathed in a pure
cold light. But, as usual, my thoughts
began to wander. I had to will
myself to see what I was seeing
and nothing else. I had to tell myself this is what
mattered, not the other. (And I did see it,
for a minute or two!) For a minute or two
it crowded out the usual musings on
what was right, and what was wrong -- duty,
tender memories, thoughts of death, how I should treat
with my former wife. All the things
I hoped would go away this morning.
The stuff I live with every day. What
I've trampled on in order to stay alive.
But for a minute or two I did forget
myself and everything else. I know I did.
For when I turned back i didn't know
where I was. Until some birds rose up
from the gnarled trees. And flew
in the direction I needed to be going.

Che Guevara's motorcycle companion, Alberto Granado, dies at 88

Alberto Granado, close friend of Che Guevara. Photograph: Javier Galeano/AP

Argentinian Alberto Granado, who travelled with Ernesto "Che" Guevara on a journey of discovery across Latin America that was immortalised on-screen in The Motorcycle Diaries, has died in Cuba aged 88.

Their road trip awoke in Guevara a social consciousness and political convictions that would turn him into one of the iconic revolutionaries of the 20th century.

The two travellers both kept diaries, which were used as background for the 2004 movie, produced by Robert Redford and directed by Walter Salles. Granado was born on 8 August 1922 in Córdoba, Argentina, and befriended Guevara as a child. As young medical students, they witnessed deep poverty across the continent, particularly Chile, Columbia, Peru and Venezuela, and their stay at a Peruvian leper colony left a lasting impression on the pair.

They parted ways in Venezuela, where Granado stayed on to work at a clinic treating leprosy patients. Guevara continued on to Miami, then returned to Buenos Aires to finish his studies.

Guevara would later join Fidel and Raul Castro in toppling the Cuban dictator Fulgencio Batista on New Year's Day in 1959.

Granado visited Cuba at Guevara's invitation in 1960 and moved to Havana the following year, teaching biochemistry at Havana University. He had lived in Cuba ever since.

In his biography of Guevara, Jon Lee Anderson wrote that Granado was "barely five feet tall and had a huge beaked nose, but he sported a barrel chest and a footballer's sturdy bowed legs; he also possessed a good sense of humor and a taste for wine, girls, literature and rugby".

According to Cuban television, Granado requested for his body to be cremated and his ashes spread in Cuba, Argentina and Venezuela. Funeral arrangements have not been announced.

Guevara was captured and killed by soldiers in Bolivia in 1967 as he tried to foment revolution in the Andean nation.

guardian.co.uk © Guardian News and Media Limited 2011

American 'King's Speech'

How to get to CHANGE

Ideas remain impractical when we have not grasped or been grasped by them. When we do not get an idea, we ask “how” to put it in practice, thereby trying to turn insights of the soul into actions of the ego. But when an insight or idea has sunk in, practice invisibly changes. The idea has opened the eye of the soul. By seeing differently, we do differently. The how is implicitly taken care of. How? disappears as the idea sinks in – as one reflects upon it rather than how to do something with it. This movement of grasping ideas is vertical and inward rather than horizontal or outward into the realm of doing something. The only legitimate How? in regard to these psychological insights is How can I grasp an idea?

James Hillman

Death Row

“Advice? I don’t have advice. Stop aspiring and start writing. If you’re writing, you’re a writer. Write like you’re a goddamn death row inmate and the governor is out of the country and there’s no chance for a pardon. Write like you’re clinging to the edge of a cliff, white knuckles, on your last breath, and you’ve got just one last thing to say, like you’re a bird flying over us and you can see everything, and please, for God’s sake, tell us something that will save us from ourselves. Take a deep breath and tell us your deepest, darkest secret, so we can wipe our brow and know that we’re not alone. Write like you have a message from the king. Or don’t. Who knows, maybe you’re one of the lucky ones who doesn’t have to.”

~ Alan Watts

Happy Birthday, Matthew!

Light and Shadow

The older I get, the simpler things become, and the harder they are to achieve.

We humans like to think of ourselves in a fine light, filled with goodness, high motives - think of ourselves as people we would like to have as friends. But the truth is far messier. For every ray of singular clarity and goodness, we possess multiple shadows of duplicity where we deny our willingness to sacrifice truth, and one another, for the sake of keeping our iconic image of ourselves, intact, and well placed on our inner shelf of religious devotion.

Marriage is that way. While we somewhat acknowledge that it takes two people, and their combined efforts, to construct all that is good in a marriage, we deny, regularly, that it takes two people, together, to deconstruct a relationship and bring about its demise. When a relationship begins to evolve to an end, at least one, if not both parties, refuse to relinquish their hold on self justification, choosing the role of martyr, over active player in the marriage.

'She did this'

'He did this'

'It is her fault'

'It is his fault'

'She will pay'

'He will pay'

Was it Mohandas Gandhi who said:

'An eye for an eye

and the whole world ends up blind'

I think so ...

We idolize the institution of marriage in this culture, insist, through religious tradition and cultural mythology, that the only marriage that is successful is one that lasts until one of the parties is dead.

Never mind the absence of passion, respect, trust, honesty on a day to day basis.

Sadly, in the end, we most often, blindly resolve the dissolution of our marriages by demonizing one party, and venerating the other. Persecutor and victim. And by clinging to these rigid understandings, children, the result of the best love between two people, are harmed, and we destroy the possibility of powerful love evolving into new forms of friendship and companionship, creating a sad and pathetic hell for all involved.

Is there a way out of these societal prescribed automated responses?

Maybe.

Maybe if we choose to see ourselves like the photo here.

Light illuminating the shadow that lives and breathes in each of us.

Embracing that light and shadow.

No victims, no bad guys.

Just well meaning humans trying to love.

Then maybe, just maybe,

we can learn to preserve love

and help it to be born anew.

Embracing the human

Leaving the inhuman behind.

zjm

First Sunday After Epiphany

Meadow in Bloom | Pierre Bonnard | 1935

Tis the season of Epiphany,

the occasion to begin anew

to show

to make known

to reveal ~

The question is what?

What will we choose

to make so?

~zjm

Caractacus Potts Once Again

My kids get me. At least the one's I am still raising ... Seven year old and three year old daughters. A couple of my older kids, not so sure anymore.

Late yesterday afternoon, as light fell and darkness filled the car on our way home from a hike and dinner, they started a conversation about Chitty Chitty Bang Bang, and who the dad was. My three year old said ... "Potts, he is the dad."

I spoke from the front seat ... "Good ol' Caractacus Potts ... he was the dad, the crazy inventor."

My seven year old then spoke ... "Just like my dad, the inventor of Love."

Moments like that ...

Caractacus Potts and the REAL world

Most parents love to introduce their children, at one time or another to Caractacus Potts, the lovable and eccentric inventor at the center of Ian Fleming's story 'Chitty Chitty Bang Bang.'

A single father who daily cares for his young son and daughter, filling their minds and hearts with magic and dreams ~ placing before them a world of the possible.

But in the nasty real world, it quite another story.

Men like 'Potts' have little place in the heart of modern civilized society. They are thought of as impractical, delusional, irresponsible, unreliable men who do not really 'work' ~

After all, if there is not a predictable pay check at the end of the day ...

Mothers of children sired by the Caractacus Potts of this world most often wish, once the'Potts' have planted their seed, that they then would just go away, disappear, and passively allow their offspring be molded and shaped by the practical whims of the more reasonable people.

Quite sad really ~

Be a piss poor world without those among us committed to labor long and hard unrewarding hours until finally capturing passionate dreams, the true sustenance of life in this world gone mad

Purpose

Living at risk is jumping off the cliff and building your wings on the way down.

~Ray Bradbury

Reality

Imagination and fiction make up more than three quarters of our real life

Simone Weil